Self-Portrait, in progress, 2008, 8x10
I am surprised at how strange it still is to be back in my real life. At home things are fine but I feel very odd while out in public. Like I still have those exposed organs. I haven't really seen anyone I know yet, and I haven't even called any of my friends. At first I couldn't imagine why I was feeling like that but today it hit me-I am trying to hold onto my experiences at VSC. When I begin socializing here again, the conversations and new friendships I had there will begin to fade, just a bit and I am not quite ready yet to let that happen. I think that explains why I have been so slow to unpack as well. I still haven't entirely unpacked my suitcases or supplies, although I did take all of my paint tubes and brushes out of the box and set them out on my work table. Baby steps, I guess. I will try to do more tomorrow.
I was planning to take a few weeks off from painting, but it may not last that long. Last night, while surfing the net on my BRAND NEW COMPUTER, I came across the work of Stuart Shils and I also noticed that he is to be a visiting artist this November at VSC. Hmmm.....might have to apply for another residency. Anyway, I am quite familiar with his paintings already but for some reason they really struck a chord with me last night and the urge to get back to work just swept over me. Not that I did anything about it, of course, heh, but I am glad to have that old familiar feeling back again, which is probably why I took the step of unpacking my paints today.
Anyway, enough about my mental status. I am putting up a quick self-portrait that I did on the last day in my studio in Vermont. Actually, I may work into it a bit more, but basically I am pleased with it. It also marks the first time in twenty plus years that I have done a self-portrait. They were never my favorite thing to do, because despite being a pretty self-involved person, actually looking at myself for so long was a bit much. This time it seemed ok, though and besides this one is all about the hair. Not much introspection necessary. Heh. And in keeping with that piece, I am also including my "official" studio shot as well as a group shot of the residents. Kind of a motley crew, eh?